Tag: sorrow

Poetry

Never ending Story 

Is that who we are

What we are waiting for

What is it that happens to us

When the the time comes

Do we get to start over

Do we get to try again

Maybe in a different way

Or are we done

Stardust

An energy that lives on

With no choices left 

But to be

Dust to dust 

As they say

I want to start over

I want to remember

The mistakes I made

To do it over

Bust I also 

But I also

Want to forget

Forget the

Mistakes I have made 

Forget the loves

I have lost

But I am scared 

Scared that this is all there is

Scared that I will only

See and feel the darkness

That is Absolutely nothing

Nothing but darkness 

Or the noting that causes us 

No feelings at all

Nothing but darkness

What do I do

What do I do

I want to live

But no longer know how 

Poetry

Take me or Leave Me

Will they all leave

When they know

When they see 

I’m not all smiles

I’m not sunshine and rainbows 

I hurt

Deeper that most

I didn’t ask for this

I don’t want to be

This version of me

I’m ok

I’m not ok

This is my life

Who wants in

A lonely life

this will be

And though I hate it

I’m resolved to be

Who I am

Where I am

You and me

Or just me

Poetry

Wish

I wish I could tell you

The truth versus the lies 

But lies make me seem

Better than what I really am

I am a mess

Something no one 

Is willing to take on

I like you so much

But I know soon you’ll be gone

When you know the truth

About who I am

My lies to cover up

That which I’m ashamed

You leave me behind

Like they always do

This much work

Too much for you

I understand

That I m not perfect

A mess you would have 

To live with

To deal with

Too much to respect

A liar I am

Not what I want to be

A liar I’ve been

I hate for others

To see

Poetry

Alone

I never knew how alone I was

Until I was alone

No text or calls

No one to reach out to

I will be ok

If I’m gone

They won’t notice

And that’s not on you

I don’t want you to feel sad 

I want you to see me

As someone who was well

But wasn’t as well

I don’t want any mourning

Not over me

Just love for each other

That’s now it should be 

Take care of one another

You are all you have

Don’t mourn for me 

I’m ok where I am

I just can’t be

In this world anymore 

Poetry

That Place

I’m in that place again 

where no one knows how to deal

With my shit

To them isn’t real

I hurt inside

So I hurt myself outside

I don’t expect you to deal

With what I am going through

Something very real

I can’t explain why

I hurt myself so

That it feels right

When I am so low 

I think it helps

I think it’s the way

I will choose and 

Chase the pain away

But in the end

I only feel

A physical pain that is real

A pain that leads

To more pain as I heal

Embarrassed to show my wounds

But also asking others to feel

Something for me

To try and understand

That this is who I will be

I don’t want it to be who I am

But it is what it is

I am me and you are you

I hurt myself

And you keep to you

Poetry

Care

Is it too much to ask

For someone to care

That you’re falling apart

How do you dare

You are the one

They always come to

But when your in need

Who do you look to

You struggle with life

You’re not as perfect as you put on

The mask you wear

Is now faded and long gone

So what do you do

To show them truth 

Behind that mask

You are just you

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Alone

I never knew how alone I was

Until I was alone

No text or calls

No one to reach out to

I will be ok

If I’m gone

They won’t notice

And that’s not on you

I don’t want you to feel sad 

I want you to see me

As someone who was

But wasn’t as well

I don’t want any mourning

Not over me

Just love for each other

That’s now it should be 

Take care of one another

You are all you have

Don’t mourn for me 

I’m ok where I am

I just can’t be

In this world anymore

Poetry

First Love 

I recall the time

I was wearing the shirt

The one you always remembered

The one with purple flowers

We listened to a band play

A “show” we called it

Back in the day

You put your cap on me

Your blonde hair to your chin

You were beautiful to me

I knew the minute I saw you

I knew you were mine

And I was yours

So young we were 

Full of love

Full of hope

Little did we know 

Youth ends 

First loves end

But you are always on my mind

I always wonder 

If I could have been better

As time has gone on

So many things 

Came to light

I wish I could tell you 

Why I couldn’t 

Give you what you needed

Oh I wish I could have 

I couldn’t tell you

How I was hurt

In my past 

How I was ruined for you 

Oh what I wouldn’t give 

To relive those days 

To do it all over 

Knowing what I know now

You were my first love

You will always have

My heart 

Poetry

My Best

I gave you my best

Whatever that means 

I don’t have anything left to give 

I gave you my best

The love 

I knew how to give 

What happens

Now that 

You’re gone 

I have nothing

Left to give

I’m empty

I gave you my best

What is left of me

Nothing

If anyone comes

Around me now 

There is nothing left

I gave you my best

I gave you all I had

I gave you my best