Do you really care 

Or are you feeling like

It compulsory 

It’s ok 

To not want

To be around me 

My sadness

My mess

I’m used to those

Who leave

I’m used to those 

Who can’t handle it

It’s scary 

And it’s sad

How do people 

Live like this

A mess surrounding them

What is this they/I

Am living in

How can they go on 

I’m telling you 

It’s not easy

But I manage

For now

How much 

Do I 

Want to say

Please help me

I’m drowning 

In this mess

I’ve made

But I’m ashamed

For you to see

What I have become

I’m so tired 

Of feeling this way 

Please help me 

Find a way

A way out of 

This mess

A way out of

Me

I want to be

Happy again 

I want to be free

I want to 

Live a life

A life 

Normally

Looking for the Light

Where do I go 

When I’m lost

I’m lost

So lost

I’m not afraid 

Just wandering

Newly blind

Wandering

Around and around

I have no guide

Just myself

My thoughts

My feelings

And I’m still lost

Where do I go from here

Do I stop

Stand still

Let life happen

All around me

Or do I accept

That I am on my own

Feeling around

In the dark

Until I can find

The Light 

Do you feel like 

You are treading water 

Don’t give up

Fight through the pain 

The exhaustion 

Take a deep breath 

Sink if you need

Feel the womb of the ocean 

Comfort you

It’s ok to go under

For a second

Hold your breath

Feel the water envelop you

Then…

Kick those legs

Pull yourself up

Come up for air

Take that breath 

Fight the fatigue

Remember hope

Remember love

Remember life 

I know your tired

It would be so easy

To let go

Sink

Remember home

Remember love

Remember loss

All the things that made you strong

It’s ok to go under

For a second

Hold your breath

Feel the water envelop you

Then…

Kick those legs

Pull yourself up

Come up for air

Take that breath 

Fight the fatigue

Remember hope

Remember love

Remember life

A rescue boat

May never come

You’re on your own 

And that’s okay 

You may feel

Unprepared for what’s ahead

Afraid of the unknown 

Afraid of drowning 

The anchor 

Feels heavy

Around you

Pulling you down 

It’s ok to go under

For a second

Hold your breath

Feel the water envelop you

Then…

Kick those legs

Pull yourself up

Come up for air

Take that breath 

Fight the fatigue

Remember hope

Remember love

Remember life

Fight the current

You can push through 

It’s only water 

It’s only life

It’s painful

But it’s also hope

It’s love

It’s worth it

It’s ok to go under

As long as you 

Kick those legs

Pull yourself up

Come up for air

Take that breath 

Fight the fatigue

Remember hope

Remember love

Remember life

And Breathe

A Broken Heart

Dying of a broken heart

Is it a possibility

Is it just the start

Of a scientific understanding

A heart that stops working 

Could be triviality

A pain that’s lurking

Maybe bioengineering 

Or can it be a love long gone

A wish unspoken 

Passion overdrawn 

Oneself disappearing 

Whatever the cause may be 

The heart has been broken

This, anyone can see

Death is ever nearing

The Goodbye Note

Penned in a time of despair

A time loss 

A time that has changed

The receiver never 

Understands why

Such a letter is exchanged

The sender knows

It’s felt in the heart and soul

Never to be interchanged 

Okay

Life hits one

In an unexpected way

Being a burden is something

One cannot obey

When one feels

Sad and blue

One may write their feelings

True or untrue

Don’t be worried

Don’t be scared

Maybe one only needs

To know someone cares

In a slump

One feels alone

They crave a call

On the phone

Someone to reach out

To tell them they are okay

To tell them life can suck

But they can keep the demons at bay

A deep breath

A silent prayer

One will find themself

Through those who care

One knows it’s selfish

For them to ask

For others to reach out

To take on that task

To let one know

One is not alone

That they too have had

A depression full-blown

In their hearts and minds

They know this is not rare

But sharing their anguish

They may not dare

Together they can

Help relieve the sadness

Together they can

Find a way out of the madness

Together they can

Fight another day

Together they can

Be okay