I am a writer. Therefore, I am not sane. -Edgar Allan Poe
In the deepest pit of despair
When hope feels completely lost
There is nothing to grab on to
But then the dawn breaks
And light leads you
Back to a place of balance
And yet, there in the hopeful sunshine
You are more alone
Than when you disappeared
Into that dark pit
You are ready to embrace
The peace and joy
That eluded you
And you have to do it alone
Staying sane and hopeful
Alone
Alone
Alone
Have another first kiss
Hold hands with someone who makes my palms sweat
Know what it’s like
To not be alone
Will I ever
Watch the sunrise again
After a long night of talking
Know what it’s like
To be ok
Will I ever
Catch a snowflake with my eyelashes
Or feel one melt on my tongue
Know what it’s like
To be free
When did your heart let me go
What was the last straw
When did I stop being yours
Was it when I stopped being me
When did you decide to leave
Was I already gone
When will you come back
I’m back to me again
When will you be coming back
Will you be coming back
Demons in my head
Get louder everyday
Only so many pills
Can be taken
To drown them out
But there’s always an echo
Of the demons in my head
Will they ever go away
Add therapy to the pills
To drown them out
But there’s always an echo
Of the demons in my head
Always an echo
Always an echo
Always an echo
Of the demons in my head
Losing my mind
Losing time
Days go by
Going nowhere
In my head
Losing time
Days go by
Going nowhere In
In my bed
Losing time
In my head
Going nowhere
Days go by
When will time stop
Long enough
For me to get
Out of my head
Out of my bed
Or will days go by
Leaving me stuck
In my head
In my bed
As days go by
Escaping one’s demons
Is far easier
With the strength of many
Who can create
A chain link of love
A ladder of compassion
And a compass of hope
Will I have to spend
Taking pills
Talking to people
Feeling like I’ll never be enough
Will I worry about
Falling when I’m alone
Not knowing if someone
Will be there to help me
Will I be
Walking this earth alone
Unable to share my truth
With someone who understands
Will I be able to
Do this
Alone
An only child
Imagination flourishing
Because there’s no other
Way to go
Playing alone
Make believe
All alone
Coming home from school
Bullies seem to persist
No brother or sister
To have your back
You continue on
Twenties are fun
But hard when things crumble
No one to help you
Push through the growing pains
Parents want to help
Parents who have siblings of their own
They don’t know
How to be without
That extra support
Fumbling through
The adult years come on strong
Everything hits you
Like icy sleet
On an rainy fall evening
Loneliness pierces
Through the skin
To the heart
You continue to push through
Until the sun comes out
But you’re still alone
Then comes the day
You get a call
Parents need you
To be the parent now
It’s on you
You will do everything you can to
For those who loved and raised you
Constantly knowing you are alone
Parents have gone
And you are all alone
Family exists
Aunts, uncles, cousins
But you are alone
Alone in your pain
Your loss
No one can or will understand
Life will never be the same
You are truly alone
Children fantasize about
The Happily Ever
Everyone is saved
All adversity is conquered
Love awaits at the end
Of every story
Not knowing that
Life is a constant line of
Broken Happy Ever Afters
B.A. Wilcox © 