Tag: the future

Poetry

Never ending Story 

Is that who we are

What we are waiting for

What is it that happens to us

When the the time comes

Do we get to start over

Do we get to try again

Maybe in a different way

Or are we done

Stardust

An energy that lives on

With no choices left 

But to be

Dust to dust 

As they say

I want to start over

I want to remember

The mistakes I made

To do it over

Bust I also 

But I also

Want to forget

Forget the

Mistakes I have made 

Forget the loves

I have lost

But I am scared 

Scared that this is all there is

Scared that I will only

See and feel the darkness

That is Absolutely nothing

Nothing but darkness 

Or the noting that causes us 

No feelings at all

Nothing but darkness

What do I do

What do I do

I want to live

But no longer know how 

Poetry

Take me or Leave Me

Will they all leave

When they know

When they see 

I’m not all smiles

I’m not sunshine and rainbows 

I hurt

Deeper that most

I didn’t ask for this

I don’t want to be

This version of me

I’m ok

I’m not ok

This is my life

Who wants in

A lonely life

this will be

And though I hate it

I’m resolved to be

Who I am

Where I am

You and me

Or just me

Poetry

Truth

Are you actually telling me the truth

Or is it another scam

Get me into bed

Exploit my insecurities

Take me

Where you want to go

I just want to talk

To get to know you

Are you pretending

Take advantage

I would let you

Even if you are

I’m alone 

Thou I want something

But truly something more

Can you be something

Something more 

Than a notch on the belt

Just be honest

What do you want

Just so I know 

Poetry

I Forgive You

You made your decision

I may not understand why

But I forgive you

Whatever happens

You are my blood

You are my community

You are my country

I will continue to hope

I will continue to fight

To protect all that we are 

All that we can be

You are my 

Brothers and sisters 

I love you

I hold you in my heart

I fight for you

I forgive you

Poetry

Looking for the Light

Where do I go 

When I’m lost

I’m lost

So lost

I’m not afraid 

Just wandering

Newly blind

Wandering

Around and around

I have no guide

Just myself

My thoughts

My feelings

And I’m still lost

Where do I go from here

Do I stop

Stand still

Let life happen

All around me

Or do I accept

That I am on my own

Feeling around

In the dark

Until I can find

The Light 

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If you could turn back the clock

What would that look like

Would you tell that person

You love them more than life itself 

Or that you wish they had never

Darkened your doorstep

Would you relive that first kiss

Or do it with another

Would you study hard

And earn that degree

That has no impact

On your future 

Or would you travel the world 

Seeing the what the history books

Can’t show you 

Would you play everything safe 

College 

Marriage

Kids

Would you change the things you’ve done

Or would you do everything the same way 

Poetry

The Goodbye Note

Penned in a time of despair

A time loss 

A time that has changed

The receiver never 

Understands why

Such a letter is exchanged

The sender knows

It’s felt in the heart and soul

Never to be interchanged 

Poetry

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Almost there

What does that mean

I’m not where I

Thought I’d be

I did not expect

A suicide attempt

One or more

Rehabilitation stays

Jobs upon jobs

Figuring out

Who I am

Who I’m supposed to be

Fired for the first time

In my many pursuits

Am I stopping myself

Am I in my own way?

I don’t feel okay

I don’t feel right

I don’t know what’s going on

I don’t know what mask to don

I act

I apply

I try so hard

I’m lost in myself

I’m wrong for the part

The position, the role

I try so hard

I’m still the black swan

I won’t give up

Figuring out

Who I am

Not put on a shelf

Like a book

Or a journal

With words

Or none

I will

Find out

Who I am

For once and for all

I will write

I will sing

I will be with myself

One on one

The heartbreak

The tears, and pain

Are all I am and

I will not fall

I will over come

I will pursue

I will love again

I will continue to hope

For more than I am

For more than I can be

For all that I want

For all that is to be

I want for more

I need to be

One who lives

One who can cope

To be

To be

To be

The truest me

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