Tag: love

Poetry

As Much as I loved You

It’s been over 30 years 

And you still have a place in my heart 

I’ve tried to bury you

Beneath so many others

Others who made me feel less than 

Something you never did

Yes, we were young

Yes,  we didn’t truly know 

Anything about life

And what it would throw at us 

But what we felt was true

As true as young love could be

Now I’m afraid

Afraid I have been ruined

By a deep love

That will never again be

And though I am sad

And wish I had been what you needed

I know that you are loved

That you have loved

After me

After us

Poetry

My Own Mythology

Saw my self sitting with Hades last night

I, a Eurydice without an Orpheus to rescue me

No one to risk it all for love

Not for me

Not this time 

This time I will have to rescue myself

I will walk through hell

And never turn back

Because the light is just ahead

Poetry

Never ending Story 

Is that who we are

What we are waiting for

What is it that happens to us

When the the time comes

Do we get to start over

Do we get to try again

Maybe in a different way

Or are we done

Stardust

An energy that lives on

With no choices left 

But to be

Dust to dust 

As they say

I want to start over

I want to remember

The mistakes I made

To do it over

Bust I also 

But I also

Want to forget

Forget the

Mistakes I have made 

Forget the loves

I have lost

But I am scared 

Scared that this is all there is

Scared that I will only

See and feel the darkness

That is Absolutely nothing

Nothing but darkness 

Or the noting that causes us 

No feelings at all

Nothing but darkness

What do I do

What do I do

I want to live

But no longer know how 

Poetry

Take me or Leave Me

Will they all leave

When they know

When they see 

I’m not all smiles

I’m not sunshine and rainbows 

I hurt

Deeper that most

I didn’t ask for this

I don’t want to be

This version of me

I’m ok

I’m not ok

This is my life

Who wants in

A lonely life

this will be

And though I hate it

I’m resolved to be

Who I am

Where I am

You and me

Or just me

Poetry

Will I

Ever have a normal life

Living with this thing

I never asked for

Ever be loved

With my faults

Not what’s in my core

Ever get to know 

What true love is like

With someone I adore

Get to live

A normal life 

Will you open the door

Please see who I am

Aside from my faults 

See who I am… one you can feel something for

Poetry

Wish

I wish I could tell you

The truth versus the lies 

But lies make me seem

Better than what I really am

I am a mess

Something no one 

Is willing to take on

I like you so much

But I know soon you’ll be gone

When you know the truth

About who I am

My lies to cover up

That which I’m ashamed

You leave me behind

Like they always do

This much work

Too much for you

I understand

That I m not perfect

A mess you would have 

To live with

To deal with

Too much to respect

A liar I am

Not what I want to be

A liar I’ve been

I hate for others

To see

Poetry

There better be a donut at the end of this

Something sweet

And satisfying

Greasy smooth

Quenching that a sweet tooth 

We know we shouldn’t eat

But its sweetness calls

Like new love

Something we cannot resist

Like a first love

We know it won’t last

But we have to have it anyway 

It may add pounds

Like love adds baggage

There a sweet gooey center

We can’t resist 

And like love

We want another

The sweet donut

That allows love to go on

Poetry

Truth

Are you actually telling me the truth

Or is it another scam

Get me into bed

Exploit my insecurities

Take me

Where you want to go

I just want to talk

To get to know you

Are you pretending

Take advantage

I would let you

Even if you are

I’m alone 

Thou I want something

But truly something more

Can you be something

Something more 

Than a notch on the belt

Just be honest

What do you want

Just so I know