Tag: life

Poetry

Will I

Ever have a normal life

Living with this thing

I never asked for

Ever be loved

With my faults

Not what’s in my core

Ever get to know 

What true love is like

With someone I adore

Get to live

A normal life 

Will you open the door

Please see who I am

Aside from my faults 

See who I am… one you can feel something for

Poetry

Wish

I wish I could tell you

The truth versus the lies 

But lies make me seem

Better than what I really am

I am a mess

Something no one 

Is willing to take on

I like you so much

But I know soon you’ll be gone

When you know the truth

About who I am

My lies to cover up

That which I’m ashamed

You leave me behind

Like they always do

This much work

Too much for you

I understand

That I m not perfect

A mess you would have 

To live with

To deal with

Too much to respect

A liar I am

Not what I want to be

A liar I’ve been

I hate for others

To see

Poetry

That Place

I’m in that place again 

where no one knows how to deal

With my shit

To them isn’t real

I hurt inside

So I hurt myself outside

I don’t expect you to deal

With what I am going through

Something very real

I can’t explain why

I hurt myself so

That it feels right

When I am so low 

I think it helps

I think it’s the way

I will choose and 

Chase the pain away

But in the end

I only feel

A physical pain that is real

A pain that leads

To more pain as I heal

Embarrassed to show my wounds

But also asking others to feel

Something for me

To try and understand

That this is who I will be

I don’t want it to be who I am

But it is what it is

I am me and you are you

I hurt myself

And you keep to you

Poetry

Care

Is it too much to ask

For someone to care

That you’re falling apart

How do you dare

You are the one

They always come to

But when your in need

Who do you look to

You struggle with life

You’re not as perfect as you put on

The mask you wear

Is now faded and long gone

So what do you do

To show them truth 

Behind that mask

You are just you

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Alone

I never knew how alone I was

Until I was alone

No text or calls

No one to reach out to

I will be ok

If I’m gone

They won’t notice

And that’s not on you

I don’t want you to feel sad 

I want you to see me

As someone who was

But wasn’t as well

I don’t want any mourning

Not over me

Just love for each other

That’s now it should be 

Take care of one another

You are all you have

Don’t mourn for me 

I’m ok where I am

I just can’t be

In this world anymore

Poetry

There better be a donut at the end of this

Something sweet

And satisfying

Greasy smooth

Quenching that a sweet tooth 

We know we shouldn’t eat

But its sweetness calls

Like new love

Something we cannot resist

Like a first love

We know it won’t last

But we have to have it anyway 

It may add pounds

Like love adds baggage

There a sweet gooey center

We can’t resist 

And like love

We want another

The sweet donut

That allows love to go on

Poetry

That Place

I’m in that place again 

where no one knows how to deal

With my shit

To them isn’t real

I hurt inside

So I hurt myself outside

I don’t expect you to deal

With what I am going through

Something very real

I can’t explain why

I hurt myself so

Except that it feels right

When I am so low 

I think it helps

I think it’s the way

I will choose and 

Chase the pain away

But in the end

I only feel

A physical pain that is real

A pain that leads

To more pain as I heal

Embarrassed to show my wounds

But also asking others to feel

Something for me

To try and understand

That this is who I will be

I don’t want it to be who I am

But it is what it is

I am me and you are you

I hurt myself

And you keep to you