Tag: dreams

Poetry

Never ending Story 

Is that who we are

What we are waiting for

What is it that happens to us

When the the time comes

Do we get to start over

Do we get to try again

Maybe in a different way

Or are we done

Stardust

An energy that lives on

With no choices left 

But to be

Dust to dust 

As they say

I want to start over

I want to remember

The mistakes I made

To do it over

Bust I also 

But I also

Want to forget

Forget the

Mistakes I have made 

Forget the loves

I have lost

But I am scared 

Scared that this is all there is

Scared that I will only

See and feel the darkness

That is Absolutely nothing

Nothing but darkness 

Or the noting that causes us 

No feelings at all

Nothing but darkness

What do I do

What do I do

I want to live

But no longer know how 

Poetry

Will I

Ever have a normal life

Living with this thing

I never asked for

Ever be loved

With my faults

Not what’s in my core

Ever get to know 

What true love is like

With someone I adore

Get to live

A normal life 

Will you open the door

Please see who I am

Aside from my faults 

See who I am… one you can feel something for

Poetry

Sleeping Through Life

I sleep whenever I can

I dream vividly 

But it’s not real

I don’t care

I can sleep 

All of the time 

Just to be

In that reality 

It’s not perfect 

But it feels so good 

Better than this life

That’s not my own

I don’t even know 

Where I belong 

Where I should be

Where I can go 

I’m so lost 

I just want to be

In my dreams 

Where I fit 

Almost perfectly 

Poetry

First Love 

I recall the time

I was wearing the shirt

The one you always remembered

The one with purple flowers

We listened to a band play

A “show” we called it

Back in the day

You put your cap on me

Your blonde hair to your chin

You were beautiful to me

I knew the minute I saw you

I knew you were mine

And I was yours

So young we were 

Full of love

Full of hope

Little did we know 

Youth ends 

First loves end

But you are always on my mind

I always wonder 

If I could have been better

As time has gone on

So many things 

Came to light

I wish I could tell you 

Why I couldn’t 

Give you what you needed

Oh I wish I could have 

I couldn’t tell you

How I was hurt

In my past 

How I was ruined for you 

Oh what I wouldn’t give 

To relive those days 

To do it all over 

Knowing what I know now

You were my first love

You will always have

My heart 

Poetry

45

Almost there

What does that mean

I’m not where I

Thought I’d be

I did not expect

A suicide attempt

One or more

Rehabilitation stays

Jobs upon jobs

Figuring out

Who I am

Who I’m supposed to be

Fired for the first time

In my many pursuits

Am I stopping myself

Am I in my own way?

I don’t feel okay

I don’t feel right

I don’t know what’s going on

I don’t know what mask to don

I act

I apply

I try so hard

I’m lost in myself

I’m wrong for the part

The position, the role

I try so hard

I’m still the black swan

I won’t give up

Figuring out

Who I am

Not put on a shelf

Like a book

Or a journal

With words

Or none

I will

Find out

Who I am

For once and for all

I will write

I will sing

I will be with myself

One on one

The heartbreak

The tears, and pain

Are all I am and

I will not fall

I will over come

I will pursue

I will love again

I will continue to hope

For more than I am

For more than I can be

For all that I want

For all that is to be

I want for more

I need to be

One who lives

One who can cope

To be

To be

To be

The truest me

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