Tag: sorrow

Poetry

Letters One Night

I wrote letters one night.

The pain overtook me.

I was possessed 

By sadness 

Loneliness 

Fear

And an utter lack of hope.

So I wrote them.

I wrote to those 

I loved at one time.

Friends I had wished 

We’re still a part of my life.

Family members 

Who held a close place in my heart

Though, may not have thought of me the same.

To God.

To the Devil

If it exists.

And the words flowed through my pen

As if writing a story of my life.

All that was missing was the ending.

Poetry

The Good Drown

Do we deserve 

What we get

Awful people

Full of hate

Surrounded by family

And sycophants

Living fruitful lives

So many dream of

While those

With nothing 

But open hearts

Are reaching out for

Nothing more

Than hope

Love

Support

Only to be held down

With no life jacket 

To keep them from

Drowning 

In this world

This life of

Chaos and turmoil

Of hate and intolerance 

What else is to be done 

Take one last breath

Let the current take us

Poetry

Screaming Through the Written Word

Mom sees it

Obligatory maybe

But why can’t anyone else see

I don’t want this pain

I want Hope

Family

People who are ok with me

Being me

But also, there

Pulling me out of

The swamp

No siblings

They have each other

No lover

To hold me

Tell me they have me 

No matter what

No ride or die friends

Who can and will be there

When it’s too hard to ask for help

Maybe I want too much

A hand out to keep me

From drowning

I’m drowning 

I will be your ride or die

I will be your sister

I will be your friend

I will be your lover

Can you be mine

Can you hear me

As I shout these words aloud

As I write them down

Begging for someone to see

To know that I need

Something

Someone 

Anything but this

Emptiness

Black hole that I feel 

I’m being sucked into

PLEASE

SOMEONE

SEE

ME

All I am now 

Is disappearing 

Into my own words

Poetry

Not a Stranger in the Mirror 

Looking in the daily glass

I do see a change

As many see the new wrinkles

Spots of the years gone by

All I see is my eyes

No longer the sparkling of what used to

But rather the redness in the eyes

From tears and pain of the past

of who I am now

Where is that girl

Who was afraid but also fearless 

The girl who looked 

Toward newness and opportunity 

Was I ever that girl really

Or is what I see now

A true reflection of who

I have always been

Poetry

Drowning

Lost with no clear way out

No clear way but one

And even that is foggy

Nothing to fight for

Nothing to hold on to

I am dead weight

Stuck to the bottom

Can’t even find the air

Can’t find the surface

Can anyone pull me up

I can’t do it alone anymore

My arms are tired 

My lungs stretched to the limits

Can some one please

Throw me a life line

I know it’s a lot to ask

But I promise

I’ll be better

I’ll do better

Just help me reach the top

I need some air

I need some ground 

I can balance on

I’m tired of walking a tightrope

At the bottom of the sea

Poetry

Alone

 

I have never felt so alone

I can talk to anyone

I can go out and be jovial

I want to be

A person 

Who is asked to be there

To have a good time

But I also 

Want to be one

Whose is wanted

Someone who is needed

To be at the clubs

At the bar 

To have fun

Even when I am struggling 

I need my people

People who know me

And to pull me out

Of my funk

to see that I am 

Not ok

And yet want

To others to keep me as part of their lives

Knowing I can be fun

I can experience 

and experience 

The joy it is to

Be with my people

Please don’t shut me out

I can still be fun

I’ll talk about life

Or just play games 

Don’t push me away

Because I am not perfect 

I beg of you

To keep me in your heart

In your life 

I don’t know if I can survive 

Without you

Please accept me for who I an

As I will always accept you