Tag: memories

Poetry

Juarez y El Paso de Antano 

The border was open for all

No passports needed

Shop

Dance

Drink

A good time for all

To be had

Now 

Just a memory 

Of times

When the most to fear 

Was not having the extra ten dollars

In your pocket

Just in case la policies stopped you

No worries of La Migra

Taking your friends away

Because they weren’t from

Your town

El Paso

Sister to Juarez

Two cities

That formed as one

Two countries

Joined by the cities

Now just a memory of yesteryear 

Poetry

Dishes

Dancing to Gloria Estefan

Washing dishes

Thinking about those days in Mexico

Tequila shots at the start of the night

Drinking and dancing

Until it was time to go

Continuing to sing and dance

Walking across the bridge

Mexico to El Paso

“American” we would say

With no questions asked

Back when it didn’t matter

What side you were from

As long as you had fun

Those were the days

Long passed

Now to feel

The memories of those nights

All I can do is play the music

Take a shot of tequila

Sing and dance 

While

Doing the dishes

Poetry

Alone

 

I have never felt so alone

I can talk to anyone

I can go out and be jovial

I want to be

A person 

Who is asked to be there

To have a good time

But I also 

Want to be one

Whose is wanted

Someone who is needed

To be at the clubs

At the bar 

To have fun

Even when I am struggling 

I need my people

People who know me

And to pull me out

Of my funk

to see that I am 

Not ok

And yet want

To others to keep me as part of their lives

Knowing I can be fun

I can experience 

and experience 

The joy it is to

Be with my people

Please don’t shut me out

I can still be fun

I’ll talk about life

Or just play games 

Don’t push me away

Because I am not perfect 

I beg of you

To keep me in your heart

In your life 

I don’t know if I can survive 

Without you

Please accept me for who I an

As I will always accept you 

Poetry

First Love 

I recall the time

I was wearing the shirt

The one you always remembered

The one with purple flowers

We listened to a band play

A “show” we called it

Back in the day

You put your cap on me

Your blonde hair to your chin

You were beautiful to me

I knew the minute I saw you

I knew you were mine

And I was yours

So young we were 

Full of love

Full of hope

Little did we know 

Youth ends 

First loves end

But you are always on my mind

I always wonder 

If I could have been better

As time has gone on

So many things 

Came to light

I wish I could tell you 

Why I couldn’t 

Give you what you needed

Oh I wish I could have 

I couldn’t tell you

How I was hurt

In my past 

How I was ruined for you 

Oh what I wouldn’t give 

To relive those days 

To do it all over 

Knowing what I know now

You were my first love

You will always have

My heart 

Poetry

My Best

I gave you my best

Whatever that means 

I don’t have anything left to give 

I gave you my best

The love 

I knew how to give 

What happens

Now that 

You’re gone 

I have nothing

Left to give

I’m empty

I gave you my best

What is left of me

Nothing

If anyone comes

Around me now 

There is nothing left

I gave you my best

I gave you all I had

I gave you my best

Poetry

Do you feel like 

You are treading water 

Don’t give up

Fight through the pain 

The exhaustion 

Take a deep breath 

Sink if you need

Feel the womb of the ocean 

Comfort you

It’s ok to go under

For a second

Hold your breath

Feel the water envelop you

Then…

Kick those legs

Pull yourself up

Come up for air

Take that breath 

Fight the fatigue

Remember hope

Remember love

Remember life 

I know your tired

It would be so easy

To let go

Sink

Remember home

Remember love

Remember loss

All the things that made you strong

It’s ok to go under

For a second

Hold your breath

Feel the water envelop you

Then…

Kick those legs

Pull yourself up

Come up for air

Take that breath 

Fight the fatigue

Remember hope

Remember love

Remember life

A rescue boat

May never come

You’re on your own 

And that’s okay 

You may feel

Unprepared for what’s ahead

Afraid of the unknown 

Afraid of drowning 

The anchor 

Feels heavy

Around you

Pulling you down 

It’s ok to go under

For a second

Hold your breath

Feel the water envelop you

Then…

Kick those legs

Pull yourself up

Come up for air

Take that breath 

Fight the fatigue

Remember hope

Remember love

Remember life

Fight the current

You can push through 

It’s only water 

It’s only life

It’s painful

But it’s also hope

It’s love

It’s worth it

It’s ok to go under

As long as you 

Kick those legs

Pull yourself up

Come up for air

Take that breath 

Fight the fatigue

Remember hope

Remember love

Remember life

And Breathe