Tag: life

Poetry

Drowning

Lost with no clear way out

No clear way but one

And even that is foggy

Nothing to fight for

Nothing to hold on to

I am dead weight

Stuck to the bottom

Can’t even find the air

Can’t find the surface

Can anyone pull me up

I can’t do it alone anymore

My arms are tired 

My lungs stretched to the limits

Can some one please

Throw me a life line

I know it’s a lot to ask

But I promise

I’ll be better

I’ll do better

Just help me reach the top

I need some air

I need some ground 

I can balance on

I’m tired of walking a tightrope

At the bottom of the sea

Poetry

It’s all wrong

I can’t talk

I can’t see 

I can speak

What’s in front of me

My mind is gone

What’s happening to me 

Everything feels wrong

I cannot see

The light

From within the dark

Please someone 

Send a spark 

I’m lost

Searching for the key 

To open up 

The good inside of me

Poetry

As Much as I loved You

It’s been over 30 years 

And you still have a place in my heart 

I’ve tried to bury you

Beneath so many others

Others who made me feel less than 

Something you never did

Yes, we were young

Yes,  we didn’t truly know 

Anything about life

And what it would throw at us 

But what we felt was true

As true as young love could be

Now I’m afraid

Afraid I have been ruined

By a deep love

That will never again be

And though I am sad

And wish I had been what you needed

I know that you are loved

That you have loved

After me

After us

Poetry

Alone

 

I have never felt so alone

I can talk to anyone

I can go out and be jovial

I want to be

A person 

Who is asked to be there

To have a good time

But I also 

Want to be one

Whose is wanted

Someone who is needed

To be at the clubs

At the bar 

To have fun

Even when I am struggling 

I need my people

People who know me

And to pull me out

Of my funk

to see that I am 

Not ok

And yet want

To others to keep me as part of their lives

Knowing I can be fun

I can experience 

and experience 

The joy it is to

Be with my people

Please don’t shut me out

I can still be fun

I’ll talk about life

Or just play games 

Don’t push me away

Because I am not perfect 

I beg of you

To keep me in your heart

In your life 

I don’t know if I can survive 

Without you

Please accept me for who I an

As I will always accept you 

Poetry

Never ending Story 

Is that who we are

What we are waiting for

What is it that happens to us

When the the time comes

Do we get to start over

Do we get to try again

Maybe in a different way

Or are we done

Stardust

An energy that lives on

With no choices left 

But to be

Dust to dust 

As they say

I want to start over

I want to remember

The mistakes I made

To do it over

Bust I also 

But I also

Want to forget

Forget the

Mistakes I have made 

Forget the loves

I have lost

But I am scared 

Scared that this is all there is

Scared that I will only

See and feel the darkness

That is Absolutely nothing

Nothing but darkness 

Or the noting that causes us 

No feelings at all

Nothing but darkness

What do I do

What do I do

I want to live

But no longer know how 

Poetry

Take me or Leave Me

Will they all leave

When they know

When they see 

I’m not all smiles

I’m not sunshine and rainbows 

I hurt

Deeper that most

I didn’t ask for this

I don’t want to be

This version of me

I’m ok

I’m not ok

This is my life

Who wants in

A lonely life

this will be

And though I hate it

I’m resolved to be

Who I am

Where I am

You and me

Or just me