Tag: faith

Poetry

An Answer

The walls have caved in

I’m all alone

I’m on my own

The dust is thick

Hard to breathe 

The weight is pushing me down

Every second I’m in this hole

What do I do

I know there’s no one coming

I can give up

Lie here

Until

My lungs

My organs

My bones

Are done

Trying to sustain me

Or can I fight

What is there to latch onto 

Will the air become clear

Will I be able to move

Just an inch at a time

Do I fight 

Do I give in

Is this the fate I have been designated 

Or is there more

A light pulls me

Do I go

I go…

It is either

The light of the end

Or a new hope for tomorrow 

It is an answer

Poetry

Alone

 

I have never felt so alone

I can talk to anyone

I can go out and be jovial

I want to be

A person 

Who is asked to be there

To have a good time

But I also 

Want to be one

Whose is wanted

Someone who is needed

To be at the clubs

At the bar 

To have fun

Even when I am struggling 

I need my people

People who know me

And to pull me out

Of my funk

to see that I am 

Not ok

And yet want

To others to keep me as part of their lives

Knowing I can be fun

I can experience 

and experience 

The joy it is to

Be with my people

Please don’t shut me out

I can still be fun

I’ll talk about life

Or just play games 

Don’t push me away

Because I am not perfect 

I beg of you

To keep me in your heart

In your life 

I don’t know if I can survive 

Without you

Please accept me for who I an

As I will always accept you 

Poetry

I Forgive You

You made your decision

I may not understand why

But I forgive you

Whatever happens

You are my blood

You are my community

You are my country

I will continue to hope

I will continue to fight

To protect all that we are 

All that we can be

You are my 

Brothers and sisters 

I love you

I hold you in my heart

I fight for you

I forgive you

Poetry

Looking for the Light

Where do I go 

When I’m lost

I’m lost

So lost

I’m not afraid 

Just wandering

Newly blind

Wandering

Around and around

I have no guide

Just myself

My thoughts

My feelings

And I’m still lost

Where do I go from here

Do I stop

Stand still

Let life happen

All around me

Or do I accept

That I am on my own

Feeling around

In the dark

Until I can find

The Light 

Poetry

Do you feel like 

You are treading water 

Don’t give up

Fight through the pain 

The exhaustion 

Take a deep breath 

Sink if you need

Feel the womb of the ocean 

Comfort you

It’s ok to go under

For a second

Hold your breath

Feel the water envelop you

Then…

Kick those legs

Pull yourself up

Come up for air

Take that breath 

Fight the fatigue

Remember hope

Remember love

Remember life 

I know your tired

It would be so easy

To let go

Sink

Remember home

Remember love

Remember loss

All the things that made you strong

It’s ok to go under

For a second

Hold your breath

Feel the water envelop you

Then…

Kick those legs

Pull yourself up

Come up for air

Take that breath 

Fight the fatigue

Remember hope

Remember love

Remember life

A rescue boat

May never come

You’re on your own 

And that’s okay 

You may feel

Unprepared for what’s ahead

Afraid of the unknown 

Afraid of drowning 

The anchor 

Feels heavy

Around you

Pulling you down 

It’s ok to go under

For a second

Hold your breath

Feel the water envelop you

Then…

Kick those legs

Pull yourself up

Come up for air

Take that breath 

Fight the fatigue

Remember hope

Remember love

Remember life

Fight the current

You can push through 

It’s only water 

It’s only life

It’s painful

But it’s also hope

It’s love

It’s worth it

It’s ok to go under

As long as you 

Kick those legs

Pull yourself up

Come up for air

Take that breath 

Fight the fatigue

Remember hope

Remember love

Remember life

And Breathe

Poetry

45

Almost there

What does that mean

I’m not where I

Thought I’d be

I did not expect

A suicide attempt

One or more

Rehabilitation stays

Jobs upon jobs

Figuring out

Who I am

Who I’m supposed to be

Fired for the first time

In my many pursuits

Am I stopping myself

Am I in my own way?

I don’t feel okay

I don’t feel right

I don’t know what’s going on

I don’t know what mask to don

I act

I apply

I try so hard

I’m lost in myself

I’m wrong for the part

The position, the role

I try so hard

I’m still the black swan

I won’t give up

Figuring out

Who I am

Not put on a shelf

Like a book

Or a journal

With words

Or none

I will

Find out

Who I am

For once and for all

I will write

I will sing

I will be with myself

One on one

The heartbreak

The tears, and pain

Are all I am and

I will not fall

I will over come

I will pursue

I will love again

I will continue to hope

For more than I am

For more than I can be

For all that I want

For all that is to be

I want for more

I need to be

One who lives

One who can cope

To be

To be

To be

The truest me

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Poetry

Wings

Born consisting of pure love

Authentic to the core

As years advanced

Purity fading evermore

–

Saturated with sorrow

Yearning to die

No hope or joy

Pleading “why?”

–

Craving answers

A private war

Coveting a mental repose

Unexpectedly, an open door

–

Petition acknowledged

Hope illuminates the ashen sky

Recovery furnishes

The wings to fly

Poetry

Never Past

“What’s past is past”

“Forget the past”

“Leave the past behind”

Lies we tell ourselves

To get over love

Control our grief

Box our emotions

Forget

Forget

Forget

~

We cannot lobotomized

Our memories

Our pain

Our grief

We can only live with

Learn from

And never forget

Poetry

Tears

With the tears of joy
Her eyes sting pleasantly
Overwhelmed by
The birth of a child
A beautiful poem
A great work of art
People loving one another

With tears of pain
Her eyes burn in anguish
Overcome with sadness
The death of children
The hate in the world
Cities burning to the ground
Aspirations fading

With tears of hope
Her eyes embrace the pain
Trusting the world will recover
And love will flourish

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