Tag: change

Poetry

Could I Have Been

A rock & roll star

Playing your favorite songs 

An actress on stage and screen

Molding myself into the characters you love

A teacher

Respected by her students

A doctor or nurse

Healing those around the world 

A writer

Inspiring people with her words

A friend

Who was always there

A family member

Always thought about and cherished

Could I have been 

Anyone other than who I’ve become

I’ve tried it all 

And still feel like

No one people think about

As much as I think about them

Someone lost

In the darkest corners of my mind

Alone

Without any hope 

For what the future holds

Wandering aimlessly for a purpose

Trying everything 

I can grasp onto

And not succeeding

At any one thing

Losing myself to the void

That is life

Is that life?

Poetry

An Answer

The walls have caved in

I’m all alone

I’m on my own

The dust is thick

Hard to breathe 

The weight is pushing me down

Every second I’m in this hole

What do I do

I know there’s no one coming

I can give up

Lie here

Until

My lungs

My organs

My bones

Are done

Trying to sustain me

Or can I fight

What is there to latch onto 

Will the air become clear

Will I be able to move

Just an inch at a time

Do I fight 

Do I give in

Is this the fate I have been designated 

Or is there more

A light pulls me

Do I go

I go…

It is either

The light of the end

Or a new hope for tomorrow 

It is an answer

Poetry

Juarez y El Paso de Antano 

The border was open for all

No passports needed

Shop

Dance

Drink

A good time for all

To be had

Now 

Just a memory 

Of times

When the most to fear 

Was not having the extra ten dollars

In your pocket

Just in case la policies stopped you

No worries of La Migra

Taking your friends away

Because they weren’t from

Your town

El Paso

Sister to Juarez

Two cities

That formed as one

Two countries

Joined by the cities

Now just a memory of yesteryear 

Poetry

Dishes

Dancing to Gloria Estefan

Washing dishes

Thinking about those days in Mexico

Tequila shots at the start of the night

Drinking and dancing

Until it was time to go

Continuing to sing and dance

Walking across the bridge

Mexico to El Paso

“American” we would say

With no questions asked

Back when it didn’t matter

What side you were from

As long as you had fun

Those were the days

Long passed

Now to feel

The memories of those nights

All I can do is play the music

Take a shot of tequila

Sing and dance 

While

Doing the dishes

Poetry

How Do You 

Tell those who love you

Stop 

It’s not worth it anymore

And it’s ok

You are not their problem anymore

It’s ok to let go.

Please let go.

It’s hurts to tell them that

You are tired.

That you

Have no more strength. 

That you

Have no more fight left in you.

You know it hurts to hear

But as exhausted as they are 

You feel that 

Times 100.

They will move on

They are not weak.

Not like you are now.

Too many tears,

Too many sleepless nights,

Too much

Just too much.

The therapy,

The pills,

The hope that goes only so far.

It’s done.

You’re done. 

Poetry

Drive to Somewhere

I wish I could drive

However long it takes

Just to get to someone

Whose arms I could fall into

Someone who will hold me

As I cry my eyes out

For reasons unknown 

Or reasons that can’t be explained

Because the words won’t come out

I wish I could drive

Away from here 

To somewhere I know I could belong 

But I am a nomad

Nowhere to go

Too much to take on

They may see

But only really looking

For a soft spot to land

I am a spaceship

Entering the atmosphere with no where to land

If I land in the ocean

I drown

If I land on the earth

I will be crushed

So I drive

For miles

Hoping to find a place

To rest my weary heart

And begin a new