I can’t do it anymore
This world
This life
I don’t understand
What am I supposed to learn
All I see is pain
Is fear
Is lying
And death
I want to start over
I want a redo
Does that mean
I am left in this world
At this time
Can I be
A better me
Or will I be
Left in the dark
Nothingness
A dark reminder
That nothing exists
Outside of now
Or do I come back
A fish
A bug
A child who
Has to figure it all out again
Can I start over
Is there a way
To start over
Or is that it
Do I go and see
My Father for the first time
My grandparents
My cousin
All no longer with me
Do I stay
In pain
Lost
In a world
That doesn’t need
Me
Oh they will say
We need you
Life will not be the same
They don’t realize
They are lying
Life goes on
Time ticks away
Maybe they won’t forget
But they will move on
They will continue
Life will continue
Sadness may occur
And will pop up
From time to time
But the sun will rise
The sun will set
Hours will go by
People will smile
And laugh again
People will celebrate
The days to come
Though those days
May be numbered
But
They will have the faith
And the strength
That I no longer possess
B.A. Wilcox © 